05 February, 2020

Maybe. Someday

Ever heard the whisper of loneliness?
Or the screams of silence?
The sound of unrequited love?
The vacuum left behind once a heart has been bared?

The moment a person is on your mind
And you scroll through rectangles
for there is a chime which is happiness for you
And it has found happiness somewhere else

The conscious mind can only inflict pains
that it can tolerate on itself
The unconscious is more cruel
not knowing the pains it condemns

Struggling through a barrage of “maybe” and “someday”
you ponder on the wave of emotions two words can bring
Maybe. Someday. She says
Maybe, someday… you hear

Looking for respite from your own mind
You seek comfort which distance denies
in food and flesh and sweat and thrift
Not knowing voids such are uncompromised

Torture is not what the body endures
torture is the image the mind conjures
For every punishment is first suffered in the mind
and every scar is etched last from memory

Going through the day with endless words
Knowing which are not safe to venture on
Dancing carefully, on the carpet of dreams
Yet finding moments, which avert belief

Perhaps a stranger could lend an ear
One who comes without judgment’s fear
No prejudices on how holy we ought to have been
just be hear our story and never again be seen

And distances make me so helpless
that I envy the coffee cup
which gets to kiss your sleepy lips
awake every cold and bitter morning

And I wait for you to love me
the way I know I cannot stop loving you
but someday my persistence may fail my love
because I deserve more than a “maybe. Someday”

Vishal Gupta
27 January 2020