The first time I found you, amidst a barrage of strangers
looking for a friendly face
I was taken, somewhat aback, when you courteously agreed
to acquaint me with a city I grew to know by your memories
The first walk we took, left me wanting for more
but alas! We had to depart, making way for our own journeys
only to meet back, in the same land once again
This time, not to acquaint, but to embrace
But let me not get ahead of myself
for ours is a story meant to be told at ease
For rushed may it have been in present
looking at it from the future, the memories fade slowly
I knew not much about you, save some bits which drew me to
you
like the picture from an escapade of yours
straight hair, subtly curled up at the ends
fiery smile and ambitious eyes, a look that said “if you
dare”
Yet a peace rested on your lovely face, of a woman at ease
with herself
Seldom seen like a rare jewel, and somehow it never left my
mind
You know that moment, that brief life-changing passing
moment
when you look at someone, and you know, “she’s the one”
And it doesn’t take much to get to that realization
A smile, a look, a friendly “hi” and the heart might melt
In your case it was your name your eyes your talks your
smile
And I knew even without meeting that we were - Soulmates
No words may pay tribute, to the time I spent with you
Little as it might have been, has left me with sweet
memories
Memories enough to last a lifetime
And even though we are apart now, in my mind I shall always
remember you
For I know no other way to think of you
apart to think that it was, and shall forever be love
There comes a time in a relationship,
when two good people need to move apart
Sometimes, the time isn’t right, sometimes the love isn’t
enough
Sometimes the relationship is not ready for the people
Perhaps had we met in a different time at a different age
Perhaps I would have still loved you all the same
But perhaps it would have lasted, as it cannot now
For in these lives of ours we may never be together
and in this very life, I can never feel apart
You were my love my life my pain my disaster
My summers my spring my hail my rain
my joy my sorrow my angel my monster
You taught an empty hearse of a heart to love again
and now that you are gone
I may never be able to pick up the pieces
But I fret not that it can never come back to me
I am joyous, for I had for an instance
more than what most get in a lifetime
And so you shall continue to exist
in every passing breath and every passing thought
for I cannot know a complete life bereft of your presence
And the half empty bed shall forever beckon
the knowledge than you are gone
And the solemn look on my face shall never reveal
that you took my smiles when you left
for it is easy to move on, when you are able to hate
Or perhaps when you’re unable to feel
But to move on and still love
does not allow you to regain happiness
And I know if I live in this lack of agony,
then you must too, desperate to feel
Joy sorrow anger bewilderment – something
But these are questions, one knows not the answers to
And I know not, how to live on without you
Each day I get further, in learning to live with your
memories
Some day I shall find it in me, to be at peace with your
thought
and the imagination of your being, your thoughts, your words
Everything but your presence I shall carry along
Pushing myself to the brinks of misery and madness
For this is my love, and the only way I know how
Vishal Gupta
26 November
2017
