01 April, 2023

Underwater

Ebbs and currents flow underneath the horizon

and take me along,

Ebbs and currents, hot and cold

and with the drift I flow

 

I’d heard that only dead fish swim with the flow

and I struggled to find my own path

till I realized that not only dead fish swim with the flow

but once a while, even great big whales do

 

There is no glory in being the forever rebel

no greatness in motivation that burns the soul

for each dead body marking the paths to great peaks

was once a greatly motivated soul

 

Yet, the currents suffocate, and I cannot breathe

not that I can help it, for I am unable to swim away

but the heart craves for someone to share these breaths with

to share the weight that I feel in my heart

 

And there was no great storm in the sky

and no godly voice that prevailed

simply a scarred hand reached in

and said, ‘hey, how’s the water?

 

I found a face, both beautiful and bright

it said it had battles of its own, and would understand mine

It would not fight beside me, my wars would stay my own

It’d simply provide a place to come back to, somewhere to call “home”

 

She said, ‘where’d you wanna go? how much you wanna risk?

I’m not looking for somebody with some superhero gifts

Some superhero, some fairytale bliss

Just something I can turn to, somebody I can kiss.’

 

I said, ‘I want something just like this’

And the music flowed on its own

‘I want something just like this’

And the lights begun to glow

 

Like watching a metropolis from above, of golden snakes and silver clouds

from the darkness of my window, all outside seems so bright

but the captain soon turns on the light, and the lights outside grow dim

for once you find the light within, you don’t need the ones outside

 

She faces death each day, and knows both reality and brutality

Her heart holds all the aches she hears, and she looks for home to let them out

She knows life isn’t a chick flicks and charming men sweeping her off her feet

and she knows she cannot elope, beyond what she already has

 

All she wants is a hug amidst snow, and someone to accompany her to the mountains

all she wants is to travel to fulfill her heart’s desire

all she wants is to love, and be loved

all she wants is to be stimulated, not only with her body but to the core of her soul

 

She drapes herself plainly, and expresses her colorful soul

she charms with her elegance, and holds grace in her words

She tries to stay grounded, despite all her endeavors flying

she expects more from life, and isn’t afraid to throw a tantrum dissatisfied

 

She may not be a keeper,

not that it matters to either

sometimes you want someone to test the current

before you take them to the other side

 

She’s not faithfully mine, but I’m afraid of losing her again

She has made no commitments, but I already feel her completely mine

I have not touched her lips, but my words have touched her eyes

I may not have held her scent, but I’ve felt her heart beat wild

 

Her madness, her wildness, her passion, her vigor

leaves me short of words

this crucial point comes in every story when the next step defines the future

and I’m thankful to her, that she took my hand, and made the leap

 

They say there’re two kinds of women in the world

one that wants to make you a better man

another that makes you want to be a better man

Once I was flowing with ebbs and currents underneath the horizon

and then the Gods decided that I’d had enough

a scarred hand simply reached in,

and said, ‘hey! how’s the water?’

 

Vishal Gupta

July 13th, 2022